EMO post ! ! !

Sorry for not writing often...just that alot have happened and have been very busy with school work and stuff...Feeling kind of down for the pass month already...bad things have been happening to me and it seems like i m a magnet to attract them...I have never been so down in my life b4... and i donno how long more i can take it b4 i explode and go crazy...When i m in Singapore, i will always have a few good fren who i can talk to when bad things happen cause i can always tell them everything and know that they will always be there for me...but now in medan, i have no1 to turn to when i'm down...all i can do is lock myself in the room and be sad...there is really no1 i can trust in medan...most of the ppl are just hiding behind a smily face mask and u really donno wat they are doing and saying behind ur back...which is wat makes me really sad n sick of this place...maybe it was a wrong move to come to Medan in the fast place where i m all alone...Right now i only have my J1 students to keep me company and occupied...without them i really donno wat i m to do and i thank them from the bottom of my heart...their O level is coming soon...here i wish them all the best of luck and study hard...May u all remember wat u all study and pass the paper with straight A's... GOOD LUCK !!!

Meaning Song

Just wanna share with u all the lyrics of a song which i think is very meaningful...

Hurt lyrics (Christina Aguilera)

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

By hurting you